So My Wife is Pregnant!

I did it! Yippee! Also, oh dear.. We're excited, we're terrified. About a million emotions ran through my body when Katie told me. As of today she is 10 weeks and 5 days along, we've known for a while now but the sense of excitement hasn't passed. As she is dealing with all the changes in her body, I am also trying to adapt to the concept of being a father. Also, what does it mean to be a father in Scripture?

Now that time has passed for a bit, I have had time to contemplate and pray about being a father. I don't really care, whether it is a boy or a girl, but I do care that I raise the kid to be not only a decent human being, and not those monsters that are technically people (I'm sure you're thinking of someone right now), I am also overwhelmingly concerned about raising them to live a life in relationship with the Lord.

I didn't come to Christ until I was in late middle-school. And now that I am in seminary I am constantly hearing stories of people who's parents were pastors, and their children totally rejected Christ, or the exact opposite of that. Its a scary position to find myself in, after all this child is my wife's and my responsibility. If it is not our responsibility to share the love of Christ with this person that is going to be born in about 20 weeks, then who's is it?

I'm used to responsibility, I pay bills, I help put food on the table, I pay rent, I have a car payment, and my wife expects me to lead her spiritually. But a kid? Kids are scary. In my mind a child is a future adult. That future adult is going to be shaped by many different inputs, a huge one of those inputs is going to be their parents. I don't want to raise a monster, I want to raise a person that is going to love the Lord with all their heart and come to know Jesus more intimately than I do. Do I know how to do that?

Nope.

Will I figure it out?

I sure hope so.

Well readers, I am most likely going to be writing more about this pregnancy in the future, as well as my thoughts on fatherhood. I don't know what I'm doing guys, but that's okay. All I know is that even after knowing that my wife is pregnant for the past few weeks I feel like crowing like a rooster, beating my chest, building something, and hunting a bear. It's a pretty awesome feeling. For those of you that are finding yourselves in this same situation, enjoy it. I'm having fun at least.

Love y'all. 

Alexander Gebert.